KELLY CLARKSON - Because Of You

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I Will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I'll never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid



 21/12/11  Wednesday  2:25pm

I feel sad not because of you
is because of all of you
nobody know me well..
I am trying to be better. at last what I get? is nothing
always thinking positive always acting be tough
you dunno how much I keep the sadness deep in my heart
fucking fake smile on my face. who want it? nobody want the fking fake smile
how come laipeifen became weak and weak ..?
you are the one  happy and most cheerful infront of friend..family..
dont easy fall down when something bad happened.. okay?
dont afraid..be strong and brave to face it.
you can do it .... :)

I wish nothing spoil our family,friendship,healthy,study,work..anything
wish 2012.can bring us fun,happy,joy
Form4 life is it a new challenge for me? god bless and wish may some luck for me :P
tomorow (22.12) pmr result is  announce.
nervous and nervous. worry and worry. :(
I told myself. I had did the best. I had be hardworking ..
although the result is not good at all .. dont judge me bad
I had did my best..try my best..ya..already did.. :')
is time to face and bear it !


Dear mom..
dont challenge me..
I'm just fifteen... dont force me do something I dislike..
Sorry and .. sorry :')


Lastly, 
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to yoU! 
enjoy your life ~~ :))